Hello....
When it is a morning start in brunei... its half past midnyt here..... i just cnt shut my eyes n rest into my dreamland.. :( im homesick n i miss a guy.... so, for this post... i would like to describe a bit of this guy who stole my lil heart and kept in his.... :)
he is a guy who make me really special wf his humble words.... basically for who he is....
everytime we are together.... he would talk about his life... the up or the down side... he would just keep on talking about it... n thats make me feel that he want me to know everything about him..... our "daily" story is our bed time story....
when he got problems.... or down... with his tears falling from his wonderful eyes.... he would just took my hands n hold them close on his cheeks.... when he cool down.... he will start to tell me what had happened... thats when i know how special i am for him....
even when we are studying.... we still be together..... no matter doing our homeworks or assignments... or maybe just doing my notes..... we are there together in the libary.... or even just on the staircase.... as long as we are together.... my books are the witness.... he would draw or write something there... and i will give him a smile.... not that he done great with the drawings or words... but his handwritting... just one of a kind..... :) a wonderful feeling just u can imagine when the love letters are coming in.......
when im mad o down... n just 1 to b alone... a strict n yet a gentle voice would say.... 'im not leaving u alone'... it is always be something to go along with that.... just as he stood thre n look at me....
with his monthly allowance, a rose came up... i smiled... n he smiled me back.... that sweet smile just melt ur heart and nailed it in place.... teddy bears do come.... a bigger smile....n yet... he is still the special teddy bear in my eyes.....
as the day set in... we missed each other dearly... even its only few hours apart.... waited for midnight for a cheaper rate..... he called.... n we spend hours n hours just talking about things we done on that day.... even we have been together..... thats how we cherish our days together.... we reminiscing days of being together.... text messages are endless.... regardless to the credit we spend....
a cushion.... a small pillow.... soft and blue in colour.... mickey mouse.... a gift from me... he treasured it.... he sleeps on it..... he cuddle it on his long family trip.... n no one should touch it.... he even brought it in his car.... :) for me to cuddle at times....
he has a car now.... a charade... he is not ashame to show it to me.... even he himself ashamed of it.... as he said.... a small car for a big guy... something just not right.... without reluctant... we went out at any possible way n time.... just to get rid of problems at school.....
my first birthday with him... a ME TO YOU BEAR WITH A J! a precious gift that i treasured forever....
things goes on for a while.... for nearly two years.... with our surrounding and problems... we still stand strong together...... what a love.... at this moment i believe.. its a happy ending....
he starts working as part-time... what a joy... another big step of his life... no differences.... we spend our lunch together... n do still talk on the phone.... n update each other "daily" story....
for a while... he stayed at home.. looking for a permenant job.... more interesting.... i will have a great breakfast in the morning before class.... he cooked me breakfast.... his effort to get up in the morning n cooked... the greatest!
he got a job! this is when things changed.... he get "busy"iest...... his working time uncontrolled.... but still.... we had lunch together... we still message... but not often we talk on the phone....
he bought a pair of heels! awesome!! he get aside his ego n enter charles n keith... n bought me a pair of brown heels.... bouquet starts to get bigger.... but.. there is less little things now.....
things drifted apart while things are getting easier for us.... the reason... is still unknown.... im trying to figure it now..... n yet.. after doing this post for an hour.... im still blank....
just to let u know... i rli miss this guy sooo much now.... :(
