i miss him~*

Hello....

When it is a morning start in brunei... its half past midnyt here..... i just cnt shut my eyes n rest into my dreamland.. :( im homesick n i miss a guy.... so, for this post... i would like to describe a bit of this guy who stole my lil heart and kept in his.... :)

he is a guy who make me really special wf his humble words.... basically for who he is....

everytime we are together.... he would talk about his life... the up or the down side... he would just keep on talking about it... n thats make me feel that he want me to know everything about him..... our "daily" story is our bed time story....

when he got problems.... or down... with his tears falling from his wonderful eyes.... he would just took my hands n hold them close on his cheeks.... when he cool down.... he will start to tell me what had happened... thats when i know how special i am for him....

even when we are studying.... we still be together..... no matter doing our homeworks or assignments... or maybe just doing my notes..... we are there together in the libary.... or even just on the staircase.... as long as we are together.... my books are the witness.... he would draw or write something there... and i will give him a smile.... not that he done great with the drawings or words... but his handwritting... just one of a kind..... :) a wonderful feeling just u can imagine when the love letters are coming in.......

when im mad o down... n just 1 to b alone... a strict n yet a gentle voice would say.... 'im not leaving u alone'... it is always be something to go along with that.... just as he stood thre n look at me....

with his monthly allowance, a rose came up... i smiled... n he smiled me back.... that sweet smile just melt ur heart and nailed it in place.... teddy bears do come.... a bigger smile....n yet... he is still the special teddy bear in my eyes.....

as the day set in... we missed each other dearly... even its only few hours apart.... waited for midnight for a cheaper rate..... he called.... n we spend hours n hours just talking about things we done on that day.... even we have been together..... thats how we cherish our days together.... we reminiscing days of being together.... text messages are endless.... regardless to the credit we spend....

a cushion.... a small pillow.... soft and blue in colour.... mickey mouse.... a gift from me... he treasured it.... he sleeps on it..... he cuddle it on his long family trip.... n no one should touch it.... he even brought it in his car.... :) for me to cuddle at times....

he has a car now.... a charade... he is not ashame to show it to me.... even he himself ashamed of it.... as he said.... a small car for a big guy... something just not right.... without reluctant... we went out at any possible way n time.... just to get rid of problems at school.....

my first birthday with him... a ME TO YOU BEAR WITH A J! a precious gift that i treasured forever....

things goes on for a while.... for nearly two years.... with our surrounding and problems... we still stand strong together...... what a love.... at this moment i believe.. its a happy ending....

he starts working as part-time... what a joy... another big step of his life... no differences.... we spend our lunch together... n do still talk on the phone.... n update each other "daily" story....

for a while... he stayed at home.. looking for a permenant job.... more interesting.... i will have a great breakfast in the morning before class.... he cooked me breakfast.... his effort to get up in the morning n cooked... the greatest!

he got a job! this is when things changed.... he get "busy"iest...... his working time uncontrolled.... but still.... we had lunch together... we still message... but not often we talk on the phone....

he bought a pair of heels! awesome!! he get aside his ego n enter charles n keith... n bought me a pair of brown heels.... bouquet starts to get bigger.... but.. there is less little things now.....

things drifted apart while things are getting easier for us.... the reason... is still unknown.... im trying to figure it now..... n yet.. after doing this post for an hour.... im still blank....

just to let u know... i rli miss this guy sooo much now.... :(

im homesick~*

a mind to settle~*

my semester break starts this week.... with things happened... i find a way to settle in my mind n myb.....perhaps my soul..... by drawing....
A flower.... with a theme of a tattoo.... i drawn this to give as a card to a friend of mine.. a close friend of mine... she is going back home early n gonna miss her dearly..... :(

give me a hope~*

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dont wait~

Hello...

Im not sure how things r now.... but its just going anywhere... days by days... act to act... words to words... just one thing i can say... dont wait till hatred come...

Im not sure if things r just fine n im just going sensitive.. but it just one confusable moment when u start saying things...

myb time is the cause for all this... for being together long enough... one feels comfortable n just blinded with things that been said n done.. n hope the other side can understand... always noted! not to think that "close" people get what is in your mind... life can be that simple... n yet be complicated....

im in such a confused hepatic state at the moment.....

too many things to be done... and yet... other r meant to b left unsettled....

Im here.... back in UK!

It has been 2 months being here in UK; after coming back from summer holiday. I went back "home sweet home" for nearly 4 months. What can i say.... A WONDERFUL 4 MONTHS OF MY LIFE! reunite with my fam... with my love ones.... :)

12/05

"IN MY HEART, FJ"

5 years ago, today we became friends... without seeing what future had for us... We just slipped into each other heart every single minutes we spend together... We spend much time together to even understand each other feelings without even saying it... We become best friends to be on each other side to go through this wonderful life together... and to built good memories at possible time we have....


Today, it is our special day, for me and the man of my life, Faliq Joe... Being 60 months together, nothing as simple as ABC or 123... We been through a lot, there are tears shed, there are wound to be heal.... But at the end of the day... we are happy to say... I LOVE U! We still can say that we mean it and say it from the bottom of heart...

But this year, it is way way different for us, Being away for 8 months from him, this year anniversary is just like normal day for us... nothing much we can do... But, we planed to have our special day "doubling" with his special day..... As for the moment, we just spend wonderful time "skyping"... It was okay... But nothing is more wonderful than this,


"FJ 4 EVA"

While skyping with him, he stealed some of the time to sketch this for me.... :)

But nothing is much more wonderful than what happened few days after our anniversary... when..... MY "ME TO U" arrived on my target! A few days before our anniversary, I cheated some of my revision time, to sent him a small package consisting of few small gifts, to replace my presence... for the mean time... :)

HAPPY 5th Anniversary to the MAN OF MY LIFE, FALIQ JOE!

I love u sooo much and I really crazily missing u very bad....

Thank you for the wonderful years being with you. There is nothing much I would love to be in this world, than to be with u. There are some things that are meant to be forgotten and just let the wonderful memories live its soul within us. I would like to thank you for giving me the chances which I should not even deserved it and yet u still standing there hoping for the best. Thank you for letting me to be who I am around u.

Every step I take,
Every breath I inhaled,
Every beautiful sights I seen,
Every sound I heard,
I never missed to be reminded of u.
Because, every second without u, my mind just shut off and projecting a good picture of u.
How can I not miss u, when my heart beats with ur name...

I will give my best to love u and care about u. This is not my promise, this is my duty.. as ur lover. My love for u never dry out and here I am still standing to be loved and to love...

Thank you sayang.... I love u...

Countdown... but things aint right....

This few days.. things are getting messier... i am confused... with things u do n said.... ummm...
the words below is how i feel right now.... :(

Bigger than my written tests??

What is more BIGGER AND HARDER than my written tests??
well.... these tests in LIFE! I am now having "EVERLASTING" headache with the troubles I am facing now...
It starts way back before the Easter break... at first, nothing that can't be handle really... I still can stand and focus with what I need to face. But now...... IT IS WAY WAY WAY WORST! It has both factors.... HUMANITY and MATERIALISTIC! hahahahahah~ well... that sounds so EARTHY! hahaahah~ (I know I am laughing away my problems now, even I am not actually solving any of it... but I am just distracting myself for a while) Its actually about feelings and $$$... yes... $$$... It is not that I am short of cash.. but the things I am about to pay now is REALLY REALLY OUT OF MY CALCULATION.... and this is not even my fault.... IT JUST HAPPENED! out of BLUE... NO PREDICTION... Even I save some cash for this scenario.... ITS STILL NOT ENOUGH..... arrrghhhhh~~~
about the second factor... FEELING... I am even confused now how I am feeling right now... I am mad to whom who had giving me that $$$ problem.... and I am missing those who in BRUNEI! I miss being around them.... to hide from everything... I really miss my soulmate... Faliq Joe... He always have a room in his heart for me to cry to.... :) and I am really worry about my study...
Oh well... I have a BATTLE to attend.... fight with my lovely pen all the way through... Hope the best for me and SETTLE with this problem before going back my long long long HOLIDAYS!!!!! :)

Moment to treasure~*

Our first trip to Bridgend during Winter Break 2009....

Winchester visited~*

Our new friends had their second trip to Cardiff on the 2nd of April. They are from Winchester, Southampton. They arrived on Friday afternoon at Central Train Station. During their stay, we went to Bridgend, Cardiff Town and also Cardiff Bay.

























Cheers~*

Happiness is not promised in life but why stop trying to persue it?

I am in the mood of blogging even I have tonnes of work to do. My exams are coming. Next week I have an "OPEN BOOK" test. I have 8 reports to submit by early May, at which I only knew the submission date has been advanced for a week because of our exams. Yipeee~ what a joy..
That is such a headache for me... and things around me had not been kind with me either. I have summer rent to pay more than I expected. I should have save earlier. That is another thing to settle.
I need to see an officer at the international office and yet been disappointed every time I wanted to see him. Made an appointment and canceled.
What a life at this point. but have a faith on it. You will achieve it. :)

Disneyland Parc~*

The second day in Paris, we spend it entirely at Disneyland Parc (not a typing error.. it is spell that way in french)....
We only make our way out from the room at noon. We had our breakfast in our room (packed foods). My friend and her cousins were really tired from the trip we made the day before. Their body was aching. So we made a slow start.
At Disneyland Parc, there are about 7 mini theme parks. We went to all of them and get into some rides.





Infront of Disney's mansion....



At Disneyland Park's Town Hall......





There were parades and live shows.... Meet up withe characters session....



Morning parade with the New Generation stars.....




Frontierland.....



Adventureland.....


Pirates of Caribbean at Adventure Isle....


Stalls selling Disney's merchandises....


Madhatter's crazy tea cups....




Inside small world mansion.....


Discoveryland.....


Peter Pan's flight....


The all star parade..


Fairytale castle



Around and in the Fairytale castle....

Cheers~*